Is Lucy’s post-it note a confession? Whether you will see it as a confession or a cry of innocent anguish depends on whether *you* have a heart and a brain. If you read it carefully, you will see that Lucy does not say that she killed those babies. She says that *they said* she killed those babies. Yes, she does say she is evil. She thinks she is clearly a bad nurse who apparently couldn’t save those babies, despite her (possibly too energetic, and certainly not well supervised) attempts. More seriously, she had had an affair with an older married man, a doctor, who later dumped her and betrayed her. She spoke out about doctors’ mistakes and about the catastrophic hygienic circumstances in which she and her colleagues had to work. For two years, doctors had tried to have her taken off that ward, because she pissed them off. Her colleague nurses loved her for her forthrightness and lovely character. She is so sorry for the suffering she caused her parents and step-brothers. She is considering suicide. She has PTSD.
This deciphering of the note was created by https://x.com/chrisjclarkesq?s=21&t=1S47Jut6K2dqjKzr1sc-4A , known as Mycroft on ‘X’, that is the ‘X’ formerly known as Twitter.
I think Lucy Letby’s notes illustrate her extreme anguish, fear , isolation and desolation particularly following her interview with “Management” when she was transferred to clerical work. She was told that her name had been linked with another regarding a raised mortality rate in her Unit. It is my assumption that she left the interview feeling responsible for events on the ward; she might have been told that she” was not good enough ” to care for the more than usually vulnerable infants. Certainly I am aware of social media conversations that took place between her and a doctor friend who defended her ability and asked to be informed if anyone said that she “was not good enough”. He added that he would be happy to leave his children with her – words to that effect.
Obviously her subsequent interview with the Police could only increase her sense of despair and fear.
I often scribble notes of issues that I want to revisit at another time. Despite my best intentions and efforts, they are rarely tidy and sometimes only a single word or phrase is needed as a reminder. I think that it is a way of “parking” a problem until there is a suitable time to examine it. I only throw my notes away when I have dealt with the issues. I think that Lucy L., was doing something along these lines.
I saw a few brief scenes of her ( artists impressions) in court and she appeared to be very distressed indeed. I also thought ( from the drawings)that others had noticed and were, perhaps, concerned about her . I think that apart from total bewilderment she was feeling absolutely desperate.
PS. In a state of nervousness/ fear/anxiety, thoughts can sometimes occur so rapidly that it is vital to make quick notes.
Whilst LL denies there was any affair between her and the doctor, and there is no evidence of such a thing taking place, I think it’s fair to take her at her word here. I’m not sure I would state this as a fact.
Not that even if it were true this constitutes any evidence of her guilt. It’s just gossip being used in the absence of any actual evidence.
OK, I should not state it as a fact. It’s a speculation. The fact that the prosecution relies on such a mass of inconequential details is a strong indication that they are just trying to overwhelm the jury with quantity, but it really a huge quantity of nothing. The whole case is just gossip together with cover-up of hospital and doctors’ failings.
His “interpretation” is wrong. #LucyLetby wrote “How will things ever be like they used to. they won’t”.
OK, if you say so. I don’t think this alters my conclusion that the post-it note is far stronger evidence for innocence than for guilt
If this linked article about the similar Barbara Salisbury nurse case in the Cheshire area is accurate, it explains very well the depths of depression which both Barbara and Lucy were driven to by similar allegations, leading to Lucy’s feelings as expressed in the post-it note: http://www.mojuk.org.uk/Portia/archive%2012/salisbury.html
I do have a different understanding of ‘ I AM EVIL , I DID THIS’
My reading of this is that it follows on from the allegations made about her ‘ they said….
and this sentence I see as her attempt to register the enormity of what she is being accused of. Hence the capital letters. Its internal talk, a summary in one sentence of the impact of the allegations on her. This is what these allegations mean, they mean ‘I AM EVIL, I DID THIS’
That it is in in capitals is her attempt to take into herself the enormity of what she is alleged to have done.
Lucy Letby’s writing style.
HATE in capital letters circled.
Lucy uses capitalization to emphasize her conclusions.
(What these things said about her mean, what possible motivation for them there could be?)
She identifies HATE as the motivation, she circles it to show that she has pinpointed , concluded here after some ruminations. She circles it both to define it (as the motive for the things said, she has concluded) and also to protectively contain it, distance herself from this deluge of ill will as she experiences it.
We can see this is her writing style. She states what is alleged in the ‘ they said…and then again the thing identified from her ruminations as to what this means for her, says about her. Again she identifies what she concludes in capitals, this is what these allegations mean for her character.
She has a writing style. When writing a post it note in a state of extreme distress perhaps, she is circling for answers. Each time she comes to what she believes is the answer. She puts it in capitals. Hate is the motivation (all she can think why anybody would bring such allegations). And the meaning for her character she concludes is they are saying the summary of their thought must be that ,she is evil she did this. Her writing style is apparent again, its all in capitals her summary of motivation and what the meaning of the allegations for her character is.
the note flows from thought to thought, its easy to see its a form of enquiry that when she concludes or thinks what this means , she puts this in capitals. She is not confessing to murder she is saying, the allegations made can only mean that she is evil and did this.